Tough questions suck....

Okay, so here's the deal. You guys may or may not know this, but my dad has been back in the hospital since last Wed. He is going to be coming home 2moro, but things are not looking good. The Doctors have said that the cancer has spread to pretty much everywhere in his body and that at this point there isn't anything left that they can do. He is going to be placed under Hospice care when he comes back.

However, despite all this, my dad is still believing that God can heal him and is continuing to fight. He also, in my personal observation, has prepared himself for the worst and is ready to move on if that is what God's will is.

As you all can imagine this is a very tough time for me and my family, and we all have asked ourselves some very tough questions. For me, one of those questions was to myself. It was, "With everything that has happened in the last few months and years, how do I know that God really exists?" And the answer is because of the faith my father has had and still has during all this.

Now, my father is not a stupid man. He is one of the wisest and most intelligent people that I know. He is not one to follow blindly with out just cause and reason. It is because of his logical faith in God that I know God exists, has a plan, and, despite all the bad that has happened in the past few years, is using this situation to His tremendous advantage.

I cannot begin to tell you of the huge number of people, many of which I have no idea who they are, who at church have stopped me to tell me that they are praying for my dad. I have also heard stories about how my dad's faith has encouraged other in their own personal fights with serious illnesses. And God even used this situation to keep me from disaster when I had my appendix removed. But that is a story for another time.

I guess what I am trying to say is this. God exists. Period. End of story. If you don't believe me (which I know all of you do) then come get to know my father, and I mean GET TO KNOW MY FATHER. If you can walk away from my dad, after really getting to know him, and say that God doesn't exist, then let me know, so I can pray extra hard for you.

Now, I want to let you know, I haven't told you everything that is going on right now. Have told you the most important information as it relates to my current status. If you want to know more, then please visit http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/garydow where my mom keeps a more up to date kind of blog about what is going on.

I also want to thank you guys for all of your prayers, and ask that you continue to pray for us during this difficult time. I would also ask that, until I say differently, please do not ask me any specific questions about my dad in person. I have my reasons for asking this, which is mainly about my own personal pride, so if you would do this for me, I would greatly appreciate it.

Thank you guys.